It’s been seven years since Melissa Schuman went public along with her allegation that Backstreet Boys singer Nick Carter sexually assaulted her in a weblog put up titled, “Don’t fear, I gained’t inform anyone,” however she continues to be feeling the after-effects of constructing her story recognized to the world.

In ID’s new docuseries Fallen Idols: Nick and Aaron Carter, which premiered with its first episode on Monday night time, the previous Dream singer shared the gutwrenching particulars of the night time she was allegedly raped by the then-pop celebrity.

Within the premiere, Schuman revealed that she was first impressed to talk out concerning the incident after discovering a Radar On-line story about Carter’s alleged sexual assault of a fan, which she felt was similar to her personal expertise that’d been haunting her for years.

Not solely did she recite agonizing particulars of the night time in query in Fallen Idols, however she additionally bodily revisited the locations she says she and Carter went earlier than that alleged encounter at his condo, which introduced her to tears.

Melissa Schuman in 2001. (Theo Wargo/WireImage)

In response to Schuman, she first discovered of Carter’s curiosity in her from her band’s label reps. She mentioned they thought it’d be good publicity for her to be linked to one of many greatest acts within the enterprise on the time, even though she already had a boyfriend. Although their first name was “awkward,” they have been launched as soon as once more when solid within the movie The Hole. It was throughout an evening off set for that manufacturing when Schuman claims Carter raped her in his condo.

“I keep in mind as he’s kissing me, I’m telling him, ‘I don’t wish to have intercourse, I’m saving myself for marriage. I don’t wish to have intercourse,’” she says. “I advised him so many occasions, ‘I’m saving myself for my husband, my future husband.’ He’s like, ‘I may very well be your husband.’”

Schuman mentioned she acquired a textual content the subsequent day from Carter saying, “Why did you make me do this?” She went on to disclose her story to the mom of her pal, who was within the condo the identical night time, alongside along with her father. Schuman mentioned that whereas others urged her to go to the police, her supervisor discouraged it, noting the vulnerability of her music and performing profession.

As an alternative, she merely needed to return to working proper alongside him: “I discovered easy methods to actually masks how I actually felt. As a result of clearly I nonetheless needed to movie with him on set, and he acted like nothing occurred,” she defined. “After we have been achieved filming, I modified my quantity, and I keep in mind pondering, ‘Okay, that’s it. I’ll simply keep away from him for the remainder of my life.’”

Sadly for her, although, her subsequent supervisor, Kenneth Crear, was pleasant with Carter and recommended they document a duet collectively. Schuman mentioned that she agreed after studying that she wouldn’t bodily need to sing with him.

“My first thought was, ‘Do I’ve to be alone with him?’ And Kenneth goes, ‘Oh, no, it’s already prerecorded. You solely need to go in and do your half.’ I might really feel Kenneth’s eyes on me like he was observing me. And he goes, ‘Nick is courting Paris Hilton.’ Why did he really feel the necessity to say that? What did Nick inform him?” Schuman mentioned.

That modified, nevertheless, when he organized for Carter to sing at her document label showcase, throughout which she “froze.”

“I used to be scared, and I used to be very chilly to him. And we sang our duet. I don’t even suppose I checked out him,” Schuman remembered. “Finally, he goes, ‘Effectively, clearly we don’t like one another.’ That was the final phrases he ever mentioned to me.”

As soon as she noticed the Radar report amid the Me Too motion’s early days, Schuman determined to write down a document of her expertise, and it was her husband who needed to push the “publish” button.

“Nothing might put together me, my household, or my husband for what was about to occur,” she mentioned, with extra to come back within the second episode and past, when the present returns on Tuesday, Might 28.

Schuman has sued Carter for sexual battery, and he countersued Schuman and others who accused him of comparable crimes for defamation. Extra paperwork associated to the case can be found on a devoted docuseries web site.

There have been a number of disclaimers all through the episode, together with Nick Carter’s declare that his sexual encounter with Schuman was “consensual” and that his pal Tony Bass was there that night time and corroborates his facet of the story; plus, each her former supervisor and Kenneth Crear reportedly disputed her account.

Fallen Idols: Nick and Aaron Carter, Episodes 2-4, Might 28, 7/6c, ID

In case you or somebody you understand is the sufferer of sexual assault, contact the Rape, Abuse & Incest Nationwide Community‘s Nationwide Helpline at 1-800-656-HOPE (4673). In case you or a liked one are in fast hazard, name 911.